Thursday, June 22, 2006

What was I going to say???

I told Queen or Special K that I was going to blog again when I got home from Twin's house. Now I can't remember what I was going to blog about. (wonder why?!) ;o)
  • Was it about guys and how cute they are and how they smell so good but I can't understand them to save my life??
  • Was it about how I had been worrying that my past was soon becoming my future??
  • Was it about how everywhere I look Proverbs 3:5-6 continues to appear. "Trust in the Lord with all your heart. Lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your crooked paths straight." (MPV-Marie paraphrased version)
This week has been an emotional roller coaster ride like you wouldn't believe. Some of it was warfare and other stuff was just plain life. Through it all God kept telling me to trust Him and not be afraid.

Fear...oh that's a whole other blog all by itself.

He gives beauty for ashes, strength for fears, gladness for mourning and peace for dispair.

Praise the Lord!

Thursday Thirteen

  1. I graduated with honors last Thursday from GTC. Wahoooo!
  2. Pattycat and her boyfriend threw me the BEST graduation party ever!
  3. Then I blew it! I was selfish and hurt some dear friends. If I could turn back time...
  4. My mother went to the ER on Monday. To go to Gastro dr soon.
  5. Her 70th birthday was yesterday.
  6. We are giving her a surprise party Saturday. Shhh! Don't tell!
  7. God is teaching me a lesson about my selfishness. I didn't realize how selfish I could be.
  8. It hurts!!
  9. I'm emotionally retarded, partly because of my parents divorce when I was young and partly because I don't learn the lessons from God when I should. Let's just say if Life were school....I'd still be in middle school.
  10. I thank God for my friends who love me inspite of myself. That's real love!
  11. Monday - Friday of next week I will be at Super WOW (beach reteat) with the youth from church. This is my first time to chaperone one of their trips.
  12. I miss the youth kids from the OC. They love me! They still call me Mom and "the Warden."
  13. Seeking peace....need time with Jesus like you just don't know. I have lots of baggage to dump on Him and He is strong enough to take it.

Friday, June 16, 2006


Does God, in His omnipotence, cause all suffering?

This is something I have been thinking about and studying in a book we received at work. What do you think?

Monday, June 12, 2006

Let's be real

Trust in the Lord with all your heart...

Seek First the Kingdom of God and His Righteousness....

These are verses I keep hearing in sermons, advice from a friend, and in different daily devotionals.

The pastor gave an illustration about the grass in his yard. There's the good kind and then there are the weeds. He said he likes to walk around barefoot in his yard, pull out the weeds and replace the patches with good grass.

He asked," What is in your life that needs to be pulled out and replaced with things of the Lord?"

OUCH! That hurt!

Do I REALLY trust Jesus with every part of my life? The only way to know for sure is to try Him at His word. But I am afraid.

Why is it so hard for me to trust Him with all my heart concerning this one thing?

Why is it so hard for me to accept His "No" when it is what is best for me?

Why is it so hard for me to to be instantly obedient?

Delayed obedience is still disobedience.

Any words of wisdom or similar thoughts?

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

Who needs brakes anyway???

Today I worked late. So late that the only cars in the parking area belonged to the cleaning crew. Once in drive my car made a horrible screaching sound, until I touched my brakes. I drove about half way up the driveway and stopped. The noise stopped. I drove toward the street passing a police officer and two cars pulled over in our driveway. Not sure who was getting the ticket. (Look out Leadfoot DL)

I turned right and went to the gas station on the corner so I could look under the hood. I saw the fan belt spinning, checked the fluids, made sure nothing was sticking out of my tires (that was a long short but I was grasping at straws).

I prayed!! Trying to respond in faith like Job.

About the time I was going to pick up the phone to call for help Queen called. I didn't even take time to ask what she needed. I started telling her about my car. Maybe God had her call me at that moment...maybe she was an answer to prayer. She called her dad and he said it is the brakes. Her husband agreed. So did "sdt" and my brother T who both returned my voice mail messages. Thunderchuck wasn't sure, thought maybe it was the fanbelt.

It was one of those times when everyone I knew wasn't out of town or in church or working at the hospital.

Who but God would send a pregnant, self-proclaimed Diva Queen to help me with my car trouble.

The majority think it's the brakes so I will be taking the car someplace tomorrow for a look-see. Hopefully, brakes are covered under the 3yr/36,000 miles warranty. If not, God will provide.

(Trying to respond in faith again Lord.)

Thank you God for your provision.

I will look to the hills whence cometh my help. My help comes from the Lord!

Monday, June 05, 2006

"F" is for....

Heather from gave me the letter "F" and my job is to list ten things about me with the letter "F."
Here goes....
  1. Friendly - I never meet a stranger.
  2. Faithful - Great is His faithfulness. I desire to be faithful to Him.
  3. Fast - It's how I like to drive!
  4. Free - It is for Freedom that Christ set me FREE. Galations 5:1
  5. Funny - I kill me! :o)
  6. Feeling - I feel things deeply. It is a strength and a weakness.
  7. Forgiven - Praise the Lord! 1 John 1:9
  8. Forgetful - Who am I and what am I doing?
  9. Favorite - I am my mother's favorite child. Just kidding! We all know that's my brother T.
  10. Fire - On Fire for Jesus!

If you would like to play along, leave me a comment, and I'll give you a letter!

Saturday, June 03, 2006


Accent: Southern. Country and southern.
Bible Book that I like: Psalms, Ephesians
Chore I don't care for: Dusting
Dog or Cat: Dog
Essential Electronics: Cell phone
Favorite Cologne: Curve (Can I get an Amen from the GBC crew?)
Gold or Silver: Gold
Handbag I Carry Most Often: Birthday gift from Lisa, Shell and Mom#2
Insomnia: Every now and then, depends on the caffeine intake. I like sleep.
Job Title: Financial Secretary
Kids: Definitely someday, have to get married first.
Living Arrangements: Upstairs Apartment
Most Admirable Trait: Comforting spirit
Naughtiest Childhood Behavior: Talking back to my parents. I always had to have the last word.
Overnight Hospital Stays: When I was about 3. You don't want to know.
Project: Completing this qtr and graduating with honors on June 15.
Quote: "It's not all about you" Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren
Religion: It's not about religion, it's about relationship. I'm a Christian. (I agree wholeheartedly with Christy, Susan and Heather, so I'm keeping it here!)
Siblings: 2 older brothers, 1 older sister
Time I Wake Up: Working on getting up at 6am...
Unusual Talent or Skill: I can put my fist in my mouth.
Vegetable I Refuse to Eat: Eggplant
Worst Habit: Carrying on my own conversation
X-rays: Mouth, Spine, Cat Scan
Yummy Stuff I Cook: Brownies, cake, green beans, BBQ pork chops, Southwestern Chicken
Zoo Animal I Like Most: The elephant that ate out of my hand. See a few posts back.

Did you learn anything new about me?

Your turn!